I Feel Dirty!

It happened last night.

I was at this Mediterrean restaurant getting dinner before Financial Peace University. I thought I had enough cash to cover my lentil soup and pita and baklava.

The total: $5.34

The amount of money I had in my envelopes: $5.20

I was 14 cents short. FOURTEEN CENTS!!!

The rational thing to do would have been to just canceled the baklava. But he already had it pulled out and boxed and it smelled sooooo good.

So I pulled out my debit card (now I know why I shouldn’t leave it in my purse!)

This was the first time I’ve use my debit card since I started my cash only existence.

I felt so guilty about it. As I handed him the card I felt like I was doing something wrong. I was doing the forbidden by using that card. I didn’t have the money for that meal and I was trying to PRETEND I had the money for it by paying with a card.

I’m angry that I did it. I feel a little dirty. I want to establish good habits – and spending money on food I WANT even though I can’t afford it is not a good habit!

I think I’m just going to leave my debit card in my car rather than my purse. Since I pull money out 4 times a month I was it accessible. But I don’t want it available so that I can just “whip it out” when I want to.

Okay… slip up #1. On the bright side – the meal was delicious!

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Hiatus

Last week I was gone for the entire week at my family reunion. Tons of food, tons of fun and of course – a little bit of drama. ūüėČ

I decided that I am going to put a hiatus on my “Not Eating Out” until September. To be honest, I’m at 20 days, but ALL of those 20 days occured while I was out of town. So I am still not sure how to deal with this. I may come back in September with a new plan, but for now until I get this move taken care of and out of the way I won’t be tracking my eating. But don’t worry, I will still try to eat in as much as possible. However, I need to get my kitchen packed! And it is hard to cook when my plates and cups and pans are in boxes!

There is of course more drama moving… but I’ll save it… I have a lot of stuff to do, but just wanted to pop in and let you all know that I’m not dead. I’m just really busy getting everything together for the impending move next week!

I may post again, but if not I’ll be back around after I get internet at my new place!

345 Days of Not Eating Out: Weeks 26 and 27

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June 26th (Day 161) – Two peaches for breakfast. Mushroom, parmesan and alfredo chicken for lunch/dinner.

June 27th (Day 162)¬†¬†– Trader Joe’s Chai tea for breakfast. Fried rice with chicken, chanterelle mushrooms, zucchini, onions, and yellow squash for lunch/dinner. Peach for desert.

June 28th (Day 163)  РBanana and croissant for breakfast at group meeting. Left over mushroom, parmesan and alfredo chicken for lunch/dinner. Left over fried rice for dinner.

June 29th (Day 164)  РAsiago bread for breakfast at group meeting. Left over fried rice with chicken, chanterelle mushrooms, zucchini, onions, and yellow squash for lunch. Cheese pizza for dinner.

June 30th (Day 165)  РBerry bread for breakfast. Left over cheese pizza for lunch with peach. No dinner.

July 1st (Day 166)  РNo breakfast. Left over cheese pizza for lunch with peach. Pasta with portabella mushrooms, zucchini, bell peppers, onions and yellow squash topped with parmesan cheese for dinner.

July 2nd (Day 167) – No breakfast. Left over pasta with portabella mushrooms, zucchini, bell peppers, onions and yellow squash topped with parmesan cheese for lunch. No dinner.

July 3rd (Day 168)  РBerry bread for breakfast. No lunch. Sun chips for dinner with a peach.

July 4th (Day 169)  РNo breakfast. Red curry with chicken, portabella mushrooms, onions, zucchini, and yellow squash for dinner/lunch.

July 5th (Day 170) – Peach for breakfast. Left over red curry with chicken, portabella mushrooms, onions, zucchini, and yellow squash for lunch. Tabouli for dinner. Trader Joe’s Chai tea for dessert.

July 6th (Day 171)  РBirthday cheese cake for one of my labmates for breakfast. Left over pasta with portabella mushrooms, zucchini, bell peppers, onions and yellow squash topped with parmesan cheese for lunch. Shitake mushroom egg drop soup for dinner.

July 7th (Day 172) РNo breakfast. Left over pasta with portabella mushrooms, zucchini, bell peppers, onions and yellow squash topped with parmesan cheese for lunch. Spinach pizza for dinner.

July 8th (Day 173) РPoptart for breakfast. Left over pizza for dinner. Chicken indian curry on brown rice for dinner.

July 9th (Day 174) РNo breakfast. Left over curry for lunch. Crab cakes for dinner.

Total Days I’ve Eaten Out in 2010: 17

345 Days of Not Eating Out: Weeks 24 and 25

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June 12th (Eat Out) – Mini-vacation in Washington/Oregon

June 13th (Eat Out)  РMini-vacation in Washington/Oregon

June 14th (Eat Out)  Р Mini-vacation in Washington/Oregon

June 15th (Day 150)  Р Free food on the airlines for travel delay of a day. Grrr@them. Not counting this day.

June 16th (Day 151)  РNo breakfast. Chips and salsa for lunch. Chili for dinner.

June 17th (Day 152)  РNo breakfast. Last of my rice/beef/green chili/green peppers/black beans tacos for lunch. Shitake mushroom eggdrop soup for dinner.

June 18th (Day 153) – No breakfast. Rice with chicken, black beans and bell peppers. Chips and salsa for dinner.

June 19th (Day 154)  РNo breakfast. Turkey and provolone sandwich for lunch with Sun Chips. Peanut butter and lemon curd sandwich for dinner.

June 20th (Day 155)  РNo breakfast. Turkey and provolone sandwich for lunch with Sun Chips. Peanut butter and lemon curd sandwich for dinner.

June 21st (Day 156) – Donuts for breakfast at group meeting. Turkey and provolone sandwich for lunch with Sun Chips. Chips and salsa for dinner.

June 22nd (Day 157)¬†¬†–¬†Raisin¬†bread for breakfast at group meeting. Turkey and provolone sandwich for lunch with Sun Chips and butterscotch pudding. Peanut butter sandwich for dinner with sea salt and vinegar kettle chips.

June 23rd (Day 158) Р Nothing for breakfast. Peanut butter and lemon curd sandwich for lunch with sea salt and vinegar chips. Turkey and provolone sandwich for dinner.

June 24th (Day 159) Р Poptart for breakfast. Turkey and provolone sandwich for lunch with butterscotch pudding. Parmesan, mushroom ranch chicken for dinner.

June 25th (Day 160) РNothing for breakfast. Poptart for lunch. Peanut butter sandwich for dinner.

Total Days I’ve Eaten Out in 2010: 17

Note: I got do tired of cooking these last few days that I needed a sandwich rush. The bread is gone though and I went to the Farmer’s Market this morning and picked up a bunch of fresh veggies so I’m going to try to eat that through the week. That’s right, SS4BC is this week going to try to eat fruits and veggies EVERY DAY! OMG, I KNOW: CRAZY!!! ūüėČ

Note #2: I’m still not sure how I feel about vacation days (ie days that I’m not at home and not able to cook as where I am does not have a stove/microwave/ect) as days that I “Eat Out”. I’m already at 17 days, but when I go back and look at the times I’ve eaten out none of them have been while I was in town. All of them have been when I’ve been out of town, either in Cleveland, Memphis, Vegas, Portland, Seattle, or Kansas. I just don’t know how I feel about my “vacation meals” counting towards my number. Your thoughts would be appreciated.

Mah Pants Are Too Big

I’ve mentioned before that since I stopped eating out I had lost about 16 pounds. I’m now down to 23 pounds lost. Which is a pretty awesome unintentional side effect that I wasn’t anticipating when I started this challenge.

A lot of people have spent some time in my comments criticizing what I eat, which I kind of figured would happen if I displayed on the world wide web exactly what I eat. However, I just wanted to comment to say: What I’m eating now is SO MUCH BETTER for me than what I was eating before. ¬†The fact that I’ve lost so much weight from switching my habits just a little should be evidence of this. Is it perfect? Absolutely not. Am I getting better at the food I’m eating? You bet your buns I am – small little steps at a time. ūüėČ

ANYWAY – I’ve noticed this past week that none of my casual pants fit anymore. They all just hang on me. It is pretty frustrating. I don’t want to buy new clothes, I don’t want to get these taken in because I don’t spend more than $20 on ‘everyday’ pants anyway.

It is just annoying that even right after I wash a pair of pants they are hanging off of me very unflatteringly. I can pull them all off without undoing the buttons/zipper now. I suppose this is better than the alternative of 6 months ago when all my pants were starting to feel too tight everywhere – but gah – I just want to complain!

Mah Pants Are Too Big On Me!!!

345 Days of Not Eating Out: Weeks 22 and 23

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May 29th (Day 140) – Two slices of strawberry bread for breakfast with Trader Joe’s Chai Tea. Chips and salsa for lunch/dinner.

May 30th (Day 141)  РNo breakfast. Green chili brisket with garlic mashed potatoes for lunch. Chips and salsa for dinner.

May 31th (Day 142)  РTwo donuts at group meeting for breakfast. Left over green chili brisket with garlic mashed potatoes for lunch. Tortilla chips for dinner (out of salsa!)

June 1st (Day 143)  РSeaseme seed bagel with cream cheese for breakfast. Left over pock chop and stuffing for lunch. Shitake mushroom soup for dinner.

June 2nd (Day 144)  РPoptart for breakfast. Left over green chili brisket with garlic mashed potatoes for lunch. Hot pocket for dinner (terrible, terrible).

June 3rd (Day 145)  РOmelet for breakfast. Roast beef sandwich for lunch. Pasta for dinner. (On interview)

June 4th (EAT OUT) – Vacation after interview

June 5th (EAT OUT)  РVacation after interview

June 6th (EAT OUT)  Р Vacation after interview

June 7th (Day 146) РNo breakfast. Shitake mushroom soup for dinner. Rice and mushroom tacos for dinner.

June 8th¬†(Day 147)¬†¬†–¬†Raisin¬†bread for breakfast. Left over green chili brisket with garlic mashed potatoes for lunch. Rice/beef/green chili/green peppers/black beans tacos for dinner.

June 9th¬†(Day 148)¬†– Trader Joe’s Chai tea for breakfast. Left over rice/beef/green chili/green peppers/black beans tacos for lunch. Nothing for dinner.

June 10th¬†(Day 149) – Trader Joe’s Chai tea for breakfast. Left over rice/beef/green chili/green peppers/black beans tacos for lunch. Olives, crackers and cheese for dinner.

June 11th (Eat Out) РMini-vacation to Washington/Oregon

Total Days I’ve Eaten Out in 2010: 14

(Was out of town this weekend, that is why I’m late posting this. Oops!)

345 Days of Not Eating Out: Weeks 20 and 21

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May 15th (Day 126) – No breakfast. Shitake mushroom egg drop soup for lunch. Chips and salsa for dinner.

May 16th (Day 127)  РNo breakfast. Pizza for lunch/dinner.

May 17th (Day 128)  РPoptart for breakfast. Left over pizza for lunch. Sweet and sour chicken for dinner.

May 18th (Day 129)  РHalf a poptart for breakfast. Left over sweet and sour chicken for lunch. Chips and salsa for dinner. Chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream for desert.

May 19th (Day 130)  РHalf a poptart for breakfast. Tomato soup for lunch. Pizza for dinner. Chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream for desert.

May 20th (Day 131)  РHalf a poptart for breakfast. Left over pizza for lunch. Chicken tikka masala with broccoli, yellow squash, snap peas, carrots and mushrooms for dinner.

May 21st (Day 132) – Starbucks chai latte for breakfast/lunch while sending out applications to jobs. Shitake mushroom eggdrop soup for dinner.

May 22nd (Day 133)  РPoptart for lunch. Chips and salsa for dinner.

May 23rd (Day 134)  РPoptart for breakfast. Chips and salsa for lunch. Shitake mushroom egg drop soup for dinner.

May 24th (Day 135) – Two donuts at group meeting for breakfast. Two slices of zucchini bread for lunch. Shitake mushroom egg drop soup for dinner.

May 25th (Day 136)  РPiece of danish at group meeting for breakfast. Left over hicken tikka masala with broccoli, yellow squash, snap peas, carrots and mushrooms for lunch. Orange chicken with zucchini and mushrooms for dinner.

May 26th (Day 137) РTwo slices of zucchini bread for breakfast. Left over orange chicken with zucchini and mushrooms for lunch. Poptart for dinner and a handful of strawberries.

May 27th (Day 138) – Two slices of zucchini bread for breakfast. Left over orange chicken with zucchini and mushrooms for lunch. No dinner.

May 28th (Day 139) – No breakfast. Left over orange chicken with zucchini and mushrooms for lunch. Chips and a Poweraide for dinner. (Real healthy, right?)

Total Days I’ve Eaten Out in 2010: 10

345 Of Not Eating Out: Weeks 18 and 19

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May 1st (Day 116) Р No breakfast. Canned peaches for lunch. Chips and salsa for dinner.

May 2nd (Day 117)¬†¬†– Trader Joe’s Chai latte for breakfast. Spaghetti with homemade tomato sauce with ground beef, mushrooms, garlic, onions and green peppers for lunch/dinner.

May 3rd (Day 118)¬†¬†– Trader Joe’s Chai tea for breakfast. Left over spaghetti with homemade tomato sauce with ground beef, mushrooms, garlic, onions and green peppers for lunch. Shitaki mushroom egg drop soup for dinner. Fruit juice popsickle for dessert.

May 4th (Day 119)¬†¬†– Trader Joe’s Chai tea for breakfast. Left over pasta with zucchini, garlic, yellow squash, mushrooms and bell peppers with chicken for lunch. Chips and salsa for dinner.

May 5th¬†(Day 120)¬†¬†– Trader Joe’s Chai tea for breakfast. Lab lunch paid for by boss (Yum!). Chips and salsa for dinner.

May 6th (Day 121)¬†¬†– Trader Joe’s Chai tea for breakfast. Chips and salsa for lunch. Spicy garlic chicken for dinner.

May 7th (EAT OUT) – VEGAS!

May 8th (EAT OUT)  РVEGAS!

May 9th (EAT OUT)  РVEGAS!

May 10th (EAT OUT) РVEGAS!

May 11th (Day 122)  РBanana and multi-grain Cheerios for breakfast. Left over garlic chicken for lunch. Chips and salsa for dinner.

May 12th (Day 123) РNo breakfast. Left over spaghetti with homemade tomato sauce with ground beef, mushrooms, garlic, onions and green peppers for lunch. Shitaki mushroom soup for dinner.

May 13th (Day 124) – Cheerios of breakfast. Started to eat this disgusting Indian food that I made the night before, but it was really gross so I ate my emergency poptarts instead. Sweet and sour chicken for dinner.

May 14th (Day 125) – No breakfast. Left over sweet and sour chicken for lunch. Chips and salsa for dinner.

Total Days I’ve Eaten Out in 2010: 10

Note: I only paid for one meal when I was in Vegas. But we ate all of them out. So I don’t know if this should count or not. What do you guys think? Yes, I did eat in¬†restaurants, but we were comped for all of the meals except for one sandwich I bought. I even took food with me for the planes so I wouldn’t buy anything at the airports. Dunno… I’m not even sure if days I’m on vacation should count against my days eating out. Your thoughts are welcome and encouraged.

345 Days of Not Eating Out: Weeks 16 and 17

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April 17th (Day 102) – Two slices of banana bread for brunch. Sweet and sour pork with yellow squash added on rice for dinner. Fruit juice popsicle for dessert.

April 18th (Day 103)  РOne slice of banana bread for breakfast. Chips and salsa for lunch with a Rockstar. Spicy beef with bell peppers and onions on rice for dinner.

April 19th (Day 104)  РOne slice of banana bread for breakfast. Left over sweet and sour pork with yellow squash on rice for lunch. Apple artichoke sausage for dinner with a small bit of chips and salsa.

April 20th (Day 105)  РEverything bagel w/out cream cheese at group meeting. Left over spicy beef with bell peppers and onions on rice for lunch. Spinach fillo for dinner.

April 21th (Day 106)  РPoptarts for breakfast. Left over sweet and sour pork with yellow squash on rice for lunch. Sea salt and vinegar chips for dinner (I came home too exhausted to eat much less cook).

April 22nd (Day 107)  РPoptarts for breakfast. Left over spicy beef with bell peppers and onions on rice for lunch. Left over spinach fillo for dinner.

April 23rd (Day 108) – Poptarts for breakfast. Chiken tikka masala with broccoli, carrots, snap peas and mushrooms on rice for lunch. Left over spinach fillo for dinner.

April 24th (Day 109)  РPoptart for brunch. Hyderabadi biryani (an Idian rice dish with lemon curd and chicken) for lunch. Shitake mushroom eggdrop soup for dinner.

April 25th¬†(Day 110)¬†¬†– Poptart for brunch. DiGorno’s pizza for dinner.

April 26th (Day 111) РPoptart for breafast. Left over chiken tikka masala with broccoli, carrots, snap peas and mushrooms on rice for lunch. Pasta topped with  sautéed garlic, mushrooms, yellow squash, zucchini, onions and bell peppers for dinner.

April 27th (Day 112)¬†¬†– Chai latte (from Trader Joe’s mix) for breakfast. Left over pasta topped with ¬†saut√©ed¬†garlic, mushrooms, yellow squash, zucchini, onions and bell peppers for lunch. Spinach fillo for dinner.

April 28th (Day 113) РPoptart for breakfast. Left over Hyderabadi biryani forlunch. Chai latte from Starbucks will finishing up my lab report grading for dinner.

April 29th (Day 114) – Slice of left over pizza for brunch. Left over spinach fillo for dinner.

April 30th (Day 115) РTwo donuts for breakfast (shame on me). Left over pasta topped with  sautéed garlic, mushrooms, yellow squash, zucchini, onions and bell peppers for lunch. Left over pizza for dinner.

Total Days I’ve Eaten Out in 2010: 6

Note: I got lots more veggies in this two weeks. GO ME! =D

345 of Not Eating Out: Weeks 14 and 15

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April 3rd (Day 88) – No breakfast. Shitake mushroom eggdrop soup for lunch. Sweet and spicy shrimp with carrots, corn, snap peas and bell peppers on rice for dinner.

April 4th (Day 89)  РNo breakfast. Chicken tikka masala with rice for lunch. Shitake mushroom eggdrop soup for dinner with a Rockstar.

April 5th (Day 90)¬†¬†– Croissant with a slice of¬†Havarti¬†cheese and a slice of¬†Prosciutto for breakfast. Left over chicken tikka masala for lunch. Slice of cheese and prosciutto for dinner, wasn’t very hungry.

April 6th (Day 91)  РCroissant with a slice of Havarti cheese and a slice of Prosciutto for breakfast. Half a bag of flaming hot cheetos and a spinach/cranberry/goat cheese salad with vinaigrette for lunch. Left over bagel from group meeting for dinner (FREE FOOD!) and a Chai from Starbucks while prepping for class.

April 7th¬†(Day 92)¬†¬†– Croissant with a slice of¬†Havarti¬†cheese and a slice of¬†Prosciutto for breakfast. Sausage and chicken gumbo for lunch. Rockstar and banana for dinner. Two Reese’s peanut butter cups for dinner with a Mr. Pibb.

April 8th (Day 93)  РCroissant with a slice of Havarti cheese and a slice of Prosciutto for breakfast. Spinach/cranberry/goat cheese salad with vinaigrette for lunch. Starbucks Chai latte for dinner while preparing for lecture tomorrow morning.

April 9th (Day 94) РDried cranberries for breakfast. Two apple artichoke sausages for lunch with a Rockstar. Shitake mushroom eggdrop soup for dinner.

April 10th (Day 95)  РPeanut butter sandwich for brunch. Sourdough bread and hummus for dinner. Fruit juice popsicle for dessert.

April 11th (Day 96)  РNo breakfast. Two slices of my mushroom sauce pizza with chicken, bell peppers and yellow squash on whole wheat pizza crust. Pita chips and more hummus for dinner.

April 12th (Day 97)¬†– Two slices of strawberry bread for breakfast with a Chai latte made from the Trader Joe’s mix. YUM YUM! Baked mahi mahi on a bed of cous cous for lunch. Chai latte from Starbucks while making exam for class. Croissant with a slice of¬†Pepper Jack cheese and a slice of¬†Prosciutto for dinner.

April 13th (Day 98)  РTwo slices of strawberry bread for breakfast. Baked mahi mahi on a bed of cous cous for lunch. Pita chips and rest of hummus for snack. Basil chicken with sundried tomatoes on linguine for dinner. Fruit juice popsicle for dessert.

April 14th (Day 99) РTwo slices of banana bread for breakfast. Left over basil chicken with sundried tomatoes on linguine for lunch. One slice of strawberry bread and a small bag of kettle cooked sea salt and vinegar chips for mini-dinner #1 before evening class. Croissant with a slice of Havarti cheese and a slice of Prosciutto for dinner #2 after class.

April 15th (Day 100) РTwo slices of banana bread for breakfast. Croissant with a slice of Havarti cheese and a slice of Prosciutto for lunch with handful of leftover pita chips. Red curry with bell peppers and yellow squash on rice for dinner.

April 16th (Day 101) – Two slices of strawberry bread for breakfast with Chai tea from Trader Joe’s mix. Left over red curry with bell peppers and yellow squash on rice for lunch. Shitake mushroom eggdrop soup for dinner. Honey¬†sesame¬†crackers for evening snack.

Total Days I’ve Eaten Out in 2010: 6

Note: Since I added weight lifting to my work out routine rather than just running, I have been feeling SUPER hungry. This isn’t a bad thing, but I’m thinking I should get some sort of protein shake or even the weight watchers shakes as recovery from the lifting rather than just eating “more food”.