I can’t help it.
I know this is wrong.
But when I think about BF, I think about our future, and I think about the money situation. And I GET EXCITED about two incomes. I just do. I just imagine the things that I could do with it.
And I know this is so wrong. He is more than just a paycheck. He is more than what I can gain financially by being with another person.
I know, logically, that two people living together (which we’re not) requires more money than just one. I know that there are hidden expenses that I’m not anticipating because I’ve never lived with a guy. I know all of this. I know it.
But at the same time I can’t help thinking about it. I can’t help my mind from imagining what our money situation would be. How much easier it would be to save for the future if my income paid for living expenses and his for savings (or vice versa).
We’ve talked a bit about how a “couple” checking account situation would be. We both agree without argument on the idea of a “yours, mine and ours” checking account. Which is great. We didn’t go in to further detail about it than that. We haven’t really been together long enough for that (only 2 months-ish now).
I know approximately how much he makes, he doesn’t really know what I make (mainly because it is more than him so I’m intentionally hiding it, but he knows it is more). He knows I appreciate frugality, which makes it work well since he’s frugal by necessity.
I just… I see him… and I enjoy being with him… but I can’t help myself from thinking of the wonderful double income possibilities!!
Please tell me I’m not alone in this craziness!
(At least I’m smart enough to not TELL him this, right?)